Does anyone ask their parents how they are conceived?
Before, I wouldn’t have sacrificed anything for tennis but when I met Barbara it was different. I would have sacrificed tennis for Barbara.
How do you build a relationship when you’ve hardly shared a word but suddenly share a child? How do you love a daughter you don’t see for nearly two years? When does she become your daughter? How does she become your daughter?
That’s the hard part about sport: as men we haven’t started to be in our prime, but as athletes we are old people. I needed support. I lost trust and did stupid things.
A few years after my first son was born, he wanted to know how we chose his name, so I began reading him the story of Noah’s Ark.
I’m not a God, I make mistakes.
I haven’t lost a war. No one got killed. I just lost a tennis match.
So this is it. Match point for eternity.
I drew my strength from fear. Fear of losing. I don’t remember the games I won, only the games I lost.
When I was a child, I had posters of James Dean in my room. I was a big admirer of his work and was fascinated by him living on the edge. Looking back, my life was kind of the same.
I am thrilled to be the new team captain. I am sure that the pressures I’ve faced on centre court will stand me in good stead to battle it out against Ian and his team.
For a year, I had all sorts of weirdos coming on to me.
Winning is a way of expressing yourself.
I love the winning, I can take the losing, but most of all I Love to play.
Girls are a distraction and can easily cost points.
I met with my lawyers. They gave me all the wrong advice. For a long time I refused to accept the child was mine. I should have met her, arranged a DNA test and accepted my responsibility.
I didn’t start a war. Nobody died.
I was in the tennis bubble. I wasn’t thinking about the big picture. I didn’t notice what they said on television, I wasn’t reading any papers. I had a coach and a manager, and they kept me in the bubble.
I go to London, my favourite city in the world, and I feel at home.
I believed in raising my children as I had been raised.
I want to be a hero, a small and good kind of hero, even though I know heroes have very short lives.
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